The past is my present by Aangel

"Sorrow lasts through this night, I'll take this piece of you and hold for all eternity, for just one second I felt whole as you flew right through me... and we kiss each other one more time and sing this lie that's halfway mine, the sword is slicing through the question so I won't be fooled by his angel light"

She wishes she didn't know he has another one, she wishes he didn't fool her so many times, she wishes she didn't want him so bad...but most of all she wishes it didn't hurt so much...
All the lies, all the disappointment, all the time and the feelings she wasted on him... He was always thinking about himself, his desires, his feelings, he never wondered how she felt or what she wanted, he never cared about her soul, her needs, her tears...
He was another pain for her heart though she believed in him, she hoped he wasn't like the rest but she was so wrong about him, he is nothing better than the others...
Another night, another rain, another tear she cried for him knowing that he doesn't deserve it...
She's siting alone again and she doesn't even know what she did wrong for all this to happen to her... She's not as strong as she used to be, she's not the woman she once was, the rivers of tears she cried tore her apart, the pain and the sorrow brought her down and she feels she can't reach the top again, she can't smile like she used to, she can't enjoy life like she used to and most of all...she can't stop thinking about him, about the way he made her feel that night and the way he makes her feel now and she realizes that a night of passion isn't worth this agony...