Bittersweet by Aangel

"If I tell you, will you listen, will you stay, will you be here forever, never go away? I never thought things would change, hold me tight, please don't say again that you have to go... A bitter thought, I had it all but I just let it go, hold your silence, it's so violence since you're gone... All my thoughts are with you forever 'till the day we'll be back together, I will be waiting for you..."

It's Saturday night and she's alone... She misses him, the solitude makes her think about him even more... She needs him so much, she can't stand this feeling of loneliness, it's killing her.
Her love is so strong that it hurts her so bad but she knows that after all that has happened, after all she's done and after everything he did and said, there is no chance they could have any kind of relationship...
She knows she made some mistakes but she's only human, she can't be as perfect as he'd want her to be no matter how hard she'd try... But he isn't perfect either, he made some mistakes too and the things he did brought her pain and sorrow... She's somehow mad at him for all he's done because even though she's not perfect, she's convinced that she didn't deserve all that pain and that she isn't so bad as he thinks she is. She's sure she didn't make such big mistakes so that he'd treat her like he does. Maybe she got selfish at some point and wanted to have her part of fun, just like he did, the only difference is that he was much more selfish than she was... He only thought about himself while she couldn't stop herself from thinking about him, not even during the time she acted wrong, he was in her heart and in her mind all along those moments...
She never pretended she did things right but at least she didn't lie to herself or to the others. She's very upset by the fact that he said some bad things about her behind her back, he wasn't man enough to talk directly to her and to solve all the problems with a sincere conversation... He kept avoiding her, thinking that it would make things better but that didn't happened, at least not for her.
Maybe he is happy living in his own little world with his ideas and his feelings but she can't live in her happy little world anymore because he's become a part of that world and his presence there keeps hurting her... Everything that ever happened between them was wrong, everything was a lie, a lie she believed was true, a lie she wanted to be true and to last forever, she wanted everything to be a beautiful endless dream...
In the end, despite all that has happened, she still cares about him and she wants him to be happy and to find that special person he is looking for, the special person she didn't know how to be for him... But she knows deep inside that if he'd give her a chance, she could make things right and she could prove her feelings for him despite all her mistakes and all her wrong decisions!

Vama - Zmeul (english vers)

I was running through your veins
Blew my whispers in your brains
One by one arose your kisses
Growing love within your senses
Been your kite through all this time
Wavering if you have tried
Didnt know to work my strings

Broken flying, broken wings
Broken flying, broken wings
Need to fly away

To make love with falling rain
To make love with blowing wind
To make love with endless sky
Till there is no reason why
Moon is what remains of day
Stars are sun spots of the night
Clouds are mantle for the sun

Falling me away from you
Falling me away from you
Silence is whats left in me

To make love with falling rain
To make love with blowing wind
To make love with endless sky
Till there is no reason why
Moon is what remains of day
Stars are sun spots of the night
Clouds are mantle for the sun

Falling me away from you
Falling me away, away from you
Falling me away from you
Falling
Silence is what left in me