So much time and still... by Aangel

So much time passed her by...but she still loves him... Just hearing his name was enought to make her cry, to make her think about things she believed that were forgotten... It was enough to hear his name to make her feel his warmth again, to make her remember all the happy moments she lived, to make her want him again, even thoungh she hasn't seen him since October...and now it's April...
It's said that time heals everything but it's been 7 months and the memories are still alive in her head, she still feels his scent on her pillow each night when she goes to bed, she still feels his embrace every time she closes her eyes, she still compares every new man with him...
She didn't forget him and she's not ready to love again, she doesn't know how to love again and she doesn't want to love someone else... She still wants him, as bad as she always did, she still loves him even though there will never be anything between them, there never really was...
She would want so much to give it another try but she knows that it's useless because he never cared and he won't start to care now...
Maybe it was for the best that she didn't see him for such a long time because at some point she really thaught she was over him but she just found out that hearing his name was enough to bring her back into the past, back to that night, back to what she really feels, no more denying, at least not to herself no matter how much it hurts.

So much time passed by and still... she loves him!